THE THIRD A

Alhamdulillah is the only word that came out from my mouth when the other one A in our family arrived. I was speechless and relieved once I've given birth to this cute little boy after battling in the labour room for almost 3 hours. Thank god for making everything such a wonderful and smooth journey for me from the first month of pregnancy until delivery. I am so excited to share my birth story (although I already shared everything on my instagram) but I'm still gonna share it here.

My husband and I name our first born Muhammad Aidan. I wanted to name him Anas Aidan at first but since I went back home from hospital everybody especially my Mom in Law started calling him Muhammad so Muhammad Aidan it is. I know you would probably be saying that I can just put Muhammad Anas Aidan then, but I've set the rule for the name that it would only have two words not more than that. So he was born on 3rd of July 2019 at 9.54 pm weighing 2.7kg. To be honest I'm still in denial that I'm already a momma now but every time I see him smiling at me now I feel like I'm the luckiest woman alive. Now there are three of us. Amir Ayuni and Aidan. I'm truly grateful for what I have now as nothing can replace the love and happiness given by Allah to us now.

Okay let's get started on the birth story. It all begins on the evening of 2nd of July where I had an appointment with my gynae (Prof Haizal) on that night. From the ultrasound and checkups everything was normal so we just have to wait for the baby to arrive. My due date was expected on 4th of July so I still have another two days but Prof said to me that if the date is overdue, I will have to be induced on 9th of July not later than that.

Later that evening, around 11pm I had a mild backpain which I think it's normal because my tummy was huge and I couldn't really sit properly then. I wasn't expecting anything that night but at 5.30 am the pain started to feel stronger just like the pain I had during my period every month. The pain came on and off until 6.30 am and I woke my husband up for he's working that Wednesday morning. Then while he's getting ready, I went to the toilet to pee and I notice some blood along with clear liquid on the toilet bowl. I checked and my insting says it's time for the baby to come out. Finally *phew*. It feels like we;ve been waiting forever for you baby.

I immediately told my husband and called my mom to let her know and get ready to come to me. Mak told me not to panic and not to go to the hospital right away as it's not gonna be so quick. I took a shower and had breakfast first. Then I walked around the house and texted my sister (my sister works at the medical center which I gave birth to my son) that I'm coming soon. Then we arrived at the hospital and they asked me to do the ctg scan right away and checked me for dilation. Apparently I'm at 2cm dilation and they admitted me into the ward right away. And the waiting game begins.

It took me almost 8 hours to dilate until 4cm. I was 4cm when they asked me to go into the labour room and Prof broke my water at around 7pm. The contraction started to feel very strong and at the maximum on 9.30pm. I asked the midwife if I can push the baby already because I felt very painfull and she check my dilation again. Unfortunately I can't push the baby out yet because there's 2cm more to wait. I already felt like crying and when it's 9.45 I said that I wanna push cause I can't stand the pain anymore and Prof came. He finally said that I can push and at 9.54pm the baby was out.

I think that this is the most challenging experience ever for me cause I never imagine I could do this. Now he's 2 months already and I'm facing the most difficult challenge ever in the world which is the motherhood challenge. May I survive all day until the day I die.

The third A, Aidan.

2 MORE MONTHS!!!

Hi awesome people! My last post was a bit unhappy as the past weeks had been rough (blame the pregnancy hormones) lol. But I feel much better now. Not because I've just finish my third slice of pizza but my emotions are now more stable than before. 

Anyway, last two days I went for my monthly maternity checkup in which I had to go through a glucose tolerance test of MGTT as they call it. The rules of the test is that I cannot eat or drink anything except plain water from 10 pm the day before until 8 am the next morning. Little that I know the last meal before I fast for 10 hours would affect the result of the test. My last meal include orange juice and you know how I am with orange juice. 😅 I definitely lost to it and I drank more than a glass of it. 

The normal result of the test is below 8 and I got lucky enough to get 7.7 for the test. My gynae said if I got 7.8 she would label me as a diabetic-mommy-to-be and I will have to take a few more test to lower my sugar level. I was so relieved that my sugar level did not exceed 8 but still I have to be very careful of my diet as this month alone I had gained 3 kilos. The normal raise in weight for a pregnant woman is only 1.5 kilo and I had doubled. 😂 My weight now is 56 kg and I hope next month it will only be 57. I can do it! haha.

I can't wait to see my baby in two months but I'm so nervous everytime I think of the delivery process. I pray that everything will be smooth as my pregnancy journey is quite smooth. Do pray for me too guys. Thank you. 

EVERY CLOUD HAS A SILVER LINING

Yes, every cloud has a silver lining. But to wait for the silver is one hell of a time. And you know how the waiting game is, not everyone has the patient to wait for something we could never predict coming or not to us.

Oh hi guys. I've been missing for quite some time and I had tons of things to write about but very short time. Life is busy for me these days. Juggling between the commitment of being a wife, daughter, daughter in law, mommy to be and a very busy working woman. well not very busy but most of the time when I'm at work I don't have time for anything else but work. 

Anyway, those who have been following my post would know that I'm pregnant and I'm now in my second trimester which is 24 weeks or six months preggy. Lately, I don't seem to handle my emotion very well. Most of the time I felt like crying and wanting to go far away from people. There's one day when I felt so depressed and I went to the toilet alone just to cry. I spent most probably half an hour in the toilet that day only to sit and cry. 

So, I really hope that this is just the effects of being pregnant or else I would have to see any therapist for recovery. LOL. I think that's all for now. See you guys again next time. Let loose. 

xoxo,

Andy.

Cakes and Candles.

Birthdays. It’s the one day that I always hope it won’t end quickly for it is a very special day for me. The day I was born into this world is the day worth remembering (well at least for me). It happens to be every 4th of December every year hence December is always my favourite month. 

My first birthday party is when I was 4 years old. I got my first story book from my dad. Mom and dad invited my friends, my cousins and some other kids I didn’t even know. It was fun and exciting until I fell down bumping to one of the kids when we were running around playing. I was calmed by my mum and went back playing when the party started. 

This year, I spend my first birthday as a wife. Still very special as I got flowers and kisses the other day. Anyway, I hope everyone gets a special birthday time as me every year. 

Till next time, 

Andy

November rants.

Hi loyal readers.

It’s been a few weeks but don’t worry I’m still alive. 😂. There’s so much going on in my life in which I’m juggling between work, learning on how to be a good wife, adapting to a new lifestyle and most importantly getting ready to be a mom. Yes. I’m already 8 weeks pregnant 🤰. For me it’s quite early because I think I’m not ready and my target of pregnancy is after around 7 months of marriage but I guess we’ll never be ready until the time comes. 

So my morning and evening now is accompanied with nausea, vomiting and dizziness which is very uncomfortable but bearable. However, that is not all ladies and gentleman. I feel sleepy all the time, not to mention fatigue, back pain, losing my appetite and many more normal pregnancy symptoms that every pregnant women have. I don't have many allergies to food but I cannot stand the smell of cigarette smoke and every time smelling it I'll feel like vomiting. So my days had been like a roller coaster this November and I really hope that December will be super nice to me. I've always love December as it is my birth month and I'm welcoming December with an open heart.

Apart from being a struggling mom-to-be, lately I've been missing my family so much. It feels like packing my whole thing and going back to my hometown for good but don't worry I still am rational and I know I have commitments of being someones wife and also commitments to my work. Missing someone and not being able to see them is a very painful feeling. It does hurt sometimes because I'm in a state that needs full support so I feel like I need my mum all the time. Lucky me I have a very nice mom in law but still, its not the same. Mom will know exactly what I need and knows how cranky I can be at times and knows what to do. It is very challenging to not have your mum by your side during your first big thing like this. But it's okay, I'm a fighter and a strong woman, as far as I know I've been through so many big challenges alone and I'll stay positive on this. Many more challenging days to come and I'll share almost all my pregnancy journey with all of you lovely readers soon.

Till next time,
ENDY. 

How we met.

Hi assalamualaikum. 

Actually I don't know how to start our story of how we met. This is because we work together for a year before everything starts. But I'll try my best to make this sounds interesting. Hope it doesn't snore you off. Take a cup of coffee because this is gonna be a long entry. 

At first we were just a friend. Just a normal kawan kerja who randomly speak to each other. We only talk if there's something he wanna ask about work and vice versa. I only text or call him if there's thing about work regarding him. Besides, he always seems serious and quiet and it is so hard to see his smile. That's why I always kacau him so I could see a bit of smile on his face. Little did I know that every time I kacau, it build something inside his heart for me. 

However, he doesn't say anything or confess his feelings for me yet because at that time I'm already seeing someone. A few months after that I went through a tough time for I broke up with my boyfriend. I was so frustrated and I decided to close my heart for men. No more dating, no more texting with guys and no more thinking or talking about relationships. But, that moment doesn't last forever. He started to text me out of work hours. Mostly it started with him replying to my whatsapp status. He keeps a close tab to what I do and pays attention to every details about me. 

And then late October last year, he told me in a text that he wanna tell me something. Then I ask him out and later that night he confess his feelings for me. I would never forget that moment. The way he look at me sincerely for the first time. I didn't realise that feeling was mutual until he met my parents and tell them that he's gonna make me his wife. 

It was a smooth journey of beginning to know each other until we got engaged and finally got married which was so fast. We only got serious in relationships for two weeks before our family decided for us to be engaged and we got engaged for about 8 months then terus naik pelamin. For me it was not a very long time. But everything was and still easy when I'm with him. Plus I feel safe and it's a good sign if you feel safe whenever you're with your partner. When you find the right person, safe is home. 💕

Now we are married for two months and i hope this happiness continues forever after insyaallah. Now that I have him, I have an arms I can always snuggle into for love and support. Thank you Allah for this blessings. 😊

#yunamir 01.09.18

Finally, the day has come. I am a wife now! and I'm happily married to the man of my life, Amir bin Baharin. We got married on the 1st of September 2018. Almost two months now omg. Masih terkejut beruk lagi because everything feels surreal. But life is so much better now and I'm beyond happy. 

This month last year, I was planning to go to various places to extend my travelling list. Who knows my plan goes haywire this year as someone suddenly confesses on 21st October 2017 and ask for my hand in marriage. Allah has a better plan for me Alhamdulillah but i still miss travelling especially my annual trip to Melbourne. 

Tak pernah imagine that I will be the bride in a wedding. Selalu jadi pengapit or just watch my cousins and relatives get married. Anyway, the whole wedding thing and 'raja sehari' experiences was fun eventhough it was so tiring. Serius penat giler namatey tak bergurau. But it was worth it. Patutla selalu dengar kawan2 yang dah kawin mention 'best jugak kalau dapat naik pelamin lagi sekali'. LOL 

I'll share my wedding experiences and how I met my hubsbaby on the next post. Still waiting for the photos of my wedding from my official photographer though. Can't wait to see them. 

Reception at Desa Hj Salleh, Pasir Puteh, Kelantan

Reception on his side, Taman Bukit Meringin, Kajang, Selangor.

One second love

I’ve had the moment. It was so far the most romantic moment in my life. The moment that takes my breath away. The moment that makes the world stopped for one second. The moment when I felt like flying and my feet did not touch the ground for a sec. and it all happened in one second.

It was the moment I fell in love. It was beautiful, touchy and mesmerizing. All I can see is him in front of me. Everything around us moves in blur and very fast. It was that second after that I realized that I had fell in love and it was my first love. Everything started when I felt his pinky finger reach my pinky finger when we were walking in a carnival surrounded with so many crowds. And the rest..is history.

It only takes one second to fall in love and it also takes one second to throw away that love.

Ingatan Hujan

Rintik hujan yang turun
Buat hatiku kian meruntun
Tiap kali hujan membasahi bumi
Kau akan hadir di hati ini


Peristiwa lalu masih aku ingati
Di kala hujan kau melangkah pergi
Tinggalkan aku kuyup sendiri


Tidakku harap kau kembali lagi
Untuk kesekian kali aku ingatkan
Jika mahu lagi pergi meninggalkan
Jangan sesekali pergi tika hujan
Kerana tiap kali hujan diturunkan

Kau pasti menjelma di ingatan...

Lost Upon Precious You

Just thinking of you makes me warm


I lost in my memories of you and me


When we were together


Nothing is better


Your presence completed me


When you were there beside me


Your sweet innocent careless move


When you’re with me


Your warm hand


When you held mine


Your cute little voices


When you sang


I lost in my memories of you and me


I had lost upon precious you.

Laut, Udara, Pantai, Yang Amat Yakin Untuk Nanar Ini

Waktu aku ada kau tak hargai
Bila aku pergi
Kau merayu aku kembali
Bukan aku tak mahu kamu lagi
Tapi mungkin ini kehendak Illahi

Siapa kita tuk menentang takdirnya
Cuma usaha dan doa harapan kita tiap masa
Namun pasti Dia juga penentu segala

Pantai, laut, udara jadi saksi
Dua hati yang saling mendekati
Hingga tercetusnya nanar ini
Yang kian kali terjadi
Bila dua hati yang telah mengenali
Temui jalan mati akibat dikhianati

Jangan kau kesali kita jauh begini
Kerana waktu bersama akan ku ingati
Hanya terima kasih buatmu dari hati ini
Akan ku kenang dirimu wahai kekasih hati
Akan ku bawa memori ini sampai mati