random entry #4

assalamualaikum

okay memandangkan proposal dah siap ditaip and dah dihantar dah pun so bolehla menaip disini. seriously pack giler rase minggu before cuti midsem nih because me and my friends dihujani dengan kerja yang bertimbun.

nasib baik la proposal sempat disiapkan before the deadline. itupun kitorang sempat main snooker, tengok wayang and pegi karaoke lagi.hohoho.assignments yang kena submit awal dah pun kitorang submit. tinggal nak buat homework mase cuti, betulkan balik proposal yang dah siap ditanda, study for midsem exams and tolong our dearest supervisor, Dr. A a.k.a acu with his work. because he is super duper busy lately sampai tak menang tangan nak handle all his work.

anyway, dengan kerja yang berlambak-lambak lagi tak siap ni problems with friends tak setel-setel jugak. we are still not okay. moga Allah beri petunjuk pada kami. amin :)

minggu yang hectic ni aku dapat tidur berapa jam je sehari. siapkan kerja sampai pagi and kelas sampai ke petang.seriously penat jadi final year student ni. penat yang amat tau. so harus jadi seorang yang tabah untuk tempuh final year. bukan dari segi study je cabarannya but the challenge is the whole. i mean from study, family, friends, lecturers, fate and so on.

as i'm going through this challenging year i hope whoever is in the same situation as me is given good times and may their work be easier. amin.

let loose peeps!

I AM SORRY (T_T)

assalamualaikum.

memandangkan blogging ni one of the way to express the feeling so aku gunakan kesempatan ni untuk luahkan apa yang terbuku di hati ni. orang kata tak baik simpan perasaan sorang-sorang. kalau tak nanti kena depression tak pun sakit mental or worse comes to worst jadi pendendam yang sakit mental. bahaya tuuu.

lately friendship among agasses dah tak macam dulu. kalau dulu kami really unite sekarang tak lagi. it all happens after we went to Riau few weeks ago. actually before kitorang pegi pun dah ada issue dah. tapi seriously aku tak sangka it will end up like this. now semua ikut haluan masing-masing.ada yang tak bertegur sapa. tak pegi kelas sama-sama. tak duduk makan semeja. even kalau duduk makan semeja pun belum tentu bertegur sapa.

everything happens at Riau makes me wonder if we will ever be united like before. those happy memories, sweet moments and good times together before buat aku betul-betul sedih bila teringat balik. well nobody's perfect kan. buat salah tu tak mustahil bagi seorang yang bernama manusia. even me myself ada buat salah. banyak pun and I apologized for every wrongdoings that I've done. aku rasa dalam hal ni salah faham and miscommunication yang buat semua ni jadi twisted and susah nak diselesaikan.

yela bukan senang nak ungkapkan kata "maaf". it tooks guts to do that tapi orang yang boleh rendahkan ego dia and mintak maaf bagi aku orang yang noble. tak mudah wei serius tak mudah. and what really touched me is we've been so close for more than a year and it took only one week for us to be separated like this. T_T

if only I can go back to that time I wish I could fix everything. deep in my heart I really want us agasses to be together like we always do before but if this is the best for us now I accept this fate and may all of us be blessed by Allah forever. may we all succeed in everything that we are striving for. 

AMIN

wordless wednesday #4

O Allah, unite our heart forever please T.T

random entry #3

Assalamualaikum and if its not too late selamat hari raya.hiks

Jangan tanya apasal lambat benor wish for eid mubarak because you know everyone will be very busy when it comes to hari raya. lepas raya pulak ade final exam and cuti cuma tinggal a week before entering a new semester. ditambah lagi dengan nervousness nak masuk final year *which dah start dah right now*. everything was hmm i would say a bit chaotic for me. lagi-lagi bila second family ku kat kajang buat openhouse hari aku check in kat kolej. huru-hara mana nak check in ambik kunci bila nak hangkut barang-barang bila nak unpack. nampak tak betapa crowdednya fikiran aku masa tu.

Anyway semua tu dah lepas and dah settled dah pun. cuma banyak benda nak ambik lagi kat rumah tu sebab banyak benda tertinggal bila pack barang last minute. my final year starts with well i can say its awkward-yet-interesting. first kelas hari tu macam awkward and i don't know weather because everyone is homesick,nervous or sebab we the agasses macam dah semulajadi rapat but everyone baru nak adjust diri sebab lama tak jumpa. tapi aku rasa uncomfortable dalam class sampai hari ni. hope everything will be better soon.

Kali ni aku lebih bersemangat masuk semester baru and aku pun kurang sure kenapa. maybe because aku baru tukar netbook or because aku dapat bilik sama.entah. anyway my hope for this sem is that i'll be studying continuously bukannya last minute macam sem lepas-lepas. 

GANBATEH! 

image from google

2012 eidul fitri.

Assalamualaikum.

Dek kerana kesibukan melampau pada musim hari raya seminggu yang lepas maka tak berupdatelah belog ini. I think its not too late for me to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN for today is still dalam bulan syawal. ade jugak gian nak meng 'up' entry masa kat kampung hari tu but then baru je aku nak on lappy ade je orang datang rumah. semua gara-gara ayah buat his special homemade roti canai yang 'everybody loves it' tu.

anyway kalau nak cerita pasal raya satgi empat hari empat malam pun tak sudah nak dibaca entry aku ni. so biarlah memoria raya this year aku sematkan dalam ingatan aje. well everybody have their own version of raya story kan. lagipun aku rasa raya tahun ni agak hambar daripada selalu and rasa macam sekejap je duduk rumah because of aku balik lambat and so on.

but of course I wanna share gambar-gambar raya tahun ni. sekarang kan trend orang share gambar je. sampai nak masuk tandas pun share kat instagram. aku takdela snap banyak gambar pun tapi untuk kenangan tu adela sket-sket.


ok lets start with this pic.

 ini kek yang member ayah bagi and since aku buat kek tak berapa nak jadi so just nice la aku hidang kek ni.kekeke

these were some of the dish yang my lovely mak buat. antara juadah wajib every year is nasi impit and kuah kacang. and this year ayah buat his special roti canai with kari kambing.yumyum :)

and while they were off to semayang raya we yang tak pegi semayang raya *well you know why* sempat camwhoring while waiting for them to be home. that was me and my lovely younger sister isya.

both of us posing banyak-banyak sementara takde orang lagi kat rumah.hehe

berganti-ganti snap gambar masing-masing.

muka fresh pagi-pagi.bila dah beraya sana sini dah tak fresh macam ni.

and then ayah balik from solat hari raya terus posing depan pintu.

lepas tu terus tetamu sampai a few seconds after ayah balik. sampai kitorang satu family tak sempat nak beraya. *sobs sobs*

my cousins

my youngest sister

my only brother

sempat jugak snap gambar diorang ni walaupun busy serving the guests. then after tetamu dah beransur pulang we decided to beraya bersalam-salaman and adakan family photo moments. itupun tak berapa teratur because nampak dah ada orang sampai kat gate.

inilah heart and soul aku. my mak and ayah.hope they lasts forever together.

US XOXO

girls only with mum and dad

my grandmother

me and cousin.muka dah oily bila seharian beraya.

raya pertama balik rumah pukul 11 malam.tahun lepas takdela sakan macam ni beraya.hihi

ni pulak gambar semalam mase hantar cousin yang tengah-tengah tu balik uitm dia kat lendu, melaka.saje nak share.
 anyway later la pulak ye. let loose.


p/s: selamat bertunang la ye awak yang bertunang hari ni.

a week of cry :')

image from google

emotion is the hardest thing to be handle by a woman. this week I let the emotion wins against me. I cried quite a lot for certain reasons.

one of the reasons was for the new BERNAS raya ads that have touched thousands of people's hearts. one of them was me. it was a very good ads and no matter how many times I watched the ads I'll cry. I can't imagine if I was in their place or if it happens to my siblings. anyhow the ads brought a beautiful message for everyone that I think will make people reflects about themselves and how grateful they are to Allah.

also, I can't imagine if I lost my three very-naughty-lifetime buddies which are my brother and sisters. they always brings me laughter and sunshine to my life.

I think the ads are available on tv but for more satisfaction you should watch the full story on youtube. 

by the way today was the photoshoot and I'm glad we were able to finish it on time.I'll post up the pictures in my next entry :)

let loose.
assalam.

Thanks for watching!!!

since I don't have lots of free blogging time lately because of its Ramadhan now and its quite tiring to blogwalk and update on my blog late at night so now is the time. well I woke up early nearly everyday for sahur and slept very early everyday because I'm tired. I took sometime to update here now because I'm free tonight. tomorrow is the photoshoot for hari raya aidilfitri with all my labmates together with Dr. Azwan and our otai lab assistant En. Hassan. :)

two days ago i didn't sleep at all because my friends and I were making a video for our mental health class assignment. despite of the tired and not having enough sleep *in fact no sleep at all* we're very satisfied of the finished result of the video. the video must be uploaded on youtube yesterday and we must get 500 viewers by next friday. but surprisingly we got 700++ viewers after a day posting it! isn't it amazing?!!! haha

I think we did a quite good job because the lecturer also like the video and he said that it was fun after watching it. you guys should watch it too and commented on the video. I do appreciate if you 're willing to watch it and I appreciate it even more if you commented on it. don't worry because it's not too long and it's fun.

here's the link : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JWfJjq5B67U

enjoy! 

assalam :)

wordless wednesday #3

random entry #2

I'm super tired *macam ni* - pic source: google.

kebelakangan ni tak sempat nak update kat sini because of I'm very busy during the day and malamnya pulak I'm very tired. almaklumla balik bilik after office hour dah pukul lima setengah petang. disebabkan dekat lab terhidu all types of chemicals so asal balik je kepala berdenyut-denyut. 

almost everyday balik dengan headache and menyebabkan aku tidur awal pada sebelah malam. so conclusionnya banyak kerja akan tertangguh la kan.

last night aku kena siapkan assignment for my environmental and health class. kepala dah pening masa tu lepas tu assignment tu menambahkan lagi pening and nak kena edit part yang budak lelaki buat lagi. 

last-last bila dah siap that headache became worser sampai I feel like vomiting. teruk betul. 

then I decided to sleep earlier than usual and I slept at ten. worse comes to worst malam tadi pulak la felo-felo kolej nak buat spotcheck. so aku dikejutkan pada pukul 1 pagi semata-mata untuk spotcheck tersebut. damn. but what can I do, its a protocol. whatever.

hari ni aku ada terbaca something interesting masa online which is budak sekolah dibenarkan bawak handphone ke sekolah. 

and I was like REALLY??? IS THIS FOR REAL??? 

untunglahhh budak-budak sekolah zaman sekarang boleh bawak bb,iPhone,samsung galaxy SIII, and so on pegi sekolah. tapi kesian budak-budak yang tak berkemampuan nanti jelly-jelly tengok kawan bawak handphone canggih. 

for me, I personally rasa this matter should not be encouraged. of course la ada kelebihan boleh bawak phone pegi sekolah and ada syarat yang ditetapkan bila bawak but then there will still be disadvantages and for me I think it won't be necessary to bring phone to school. ada banyak lagi cara lain if it is for safety and connection. tapi itu cuma my opinion la.

anyway if I have children I think I won't allow them to bring phone to school because I think never the less they'll misuse it somehow. I used to bring phone to school when I was in secondary school and I misused it.

let loose and assalamualaikum =)

kerja.kelas.lepak.penat.NIM'S ISLAND???

hari-hari balik ke bilik dalam keadaan kepala berdenyut-denyut and badan kepenatan tak terhingga. itulah lumrah hidup bila dah bekerja agaknya. baru sekarang aku sedar and aku tahu betapa susahnya mak ayah aku banting tulang empat kerat untuk cari rezeki. *ececeh ayat nak dramatik habis je*

rutin aku seharian sejak dah keje ni agak penat dari kebiasaan. tapi aku redha sebab inilah yang akan mematangkan aku and jadikan aku seorang yang berguna kelak. we learn from experience and mistakes. pagi-pagi seawal jam 8 aku dah mula gerak ke makmal kimia which where i work now. sampai ke office punchcard dulu before masuk lab. if geng-geng lab dah ada kitorang akan breakfast dulu or aku akan buat kerja lab sikit sambil tunggu diorang arrive kat lab untuk ajak breaky sesama.

then if ada kelas we all akan pergi kelas but then hari selasa and khamis aku akan pegi kelas sorang-sorang because diorang tak ambil kelas yang aku ambil tu. then we all akan break untuk lunch from 1 p.m. till 2 p.m. *lebih kurang la*

after that sambung labwork lagi because most of us takde kelas petang except a few yang ade kelas waktu petang. pukul 4.30 macam tu usually labwork sume dah siap and kitorang siap-siap untuk balik. kadang-kadang extend jugak la sampai pukul 5 lebih sebab experiment kimia yang tak boleh nak tinggalkan macam tu aje. then punchcard balik and terus balik bilik.

yang specialnya hari ni after lab session dah habis, me and my collegue (lola,imran,kat,yam yam and mus) keluar makan. we all went to nim's little island which located at sungai ramal. the food was awesome and i had great times there and it's my first time makan kat situ. rasanya worth it untuk pergi lagi sekali or berkali-kali lagi lepas ni. hilang kejap sakit kepala sebab penat keje seharian.

me order spaghetti carbonara which was AWESOME

and then aku jadi ceria sebab diorang recommend aku order soda ceria nihhh

sangat tempting kannnn.kalau nak tahu ending carbonara tuh macam nihh

haa licin tau tak.memang takleh hide lagi dah aku ni peminat pasta :)

anyway makan kat nim's island ni memang best sebab tempatnya agak cantik cuma quite annoying bila ada nyamuk and kucing berkeliaran. excited sangat makan tadi sampai lupa nak snap pic kawan-kawan sambil makan.maybe next time okayyy.

let loose and assalamualaikum.

dah start kerja!

its been a fun yet though week. never expect working would be this tired everyday. skarang baru aku faham perasaan orang yang bekerja nak masuk lewat and nak punchcard keluar awal-awal. hari-hari minggu asyik terbayangkan katil empuk berbantal lembut pada hujung minggu. nak rehat jugak woi after seminggu bekerja keras perah idea buat research.kihkihkih

kerja yang aku buat ni fun and menarik sebab kitorang buat kajian untuk hasilkan benda-benda baru dari segi kimia. but then nak tunggu benda-benda tu react and the process in making tu ada masanya kitorang kena tunggu untuk tempoh yang agak lama. contohnya nak tunggu dia dry in the oven for 24 hours. kan lama tu and tak tahu nak buat apa during the time gap. walaupun masa gap tu boleh try method lain untuk hasilkan benda-benda tu tapi kalau masa tu oven yang provided dalam lab tu dah penuh tak guna jugak buat because nanti tak boleh nak terus masukkan sample untuk drying.

best je actually kerja aku as a research assistant atau shortnye RA ni. cuma kena tahu nak fill apa dengan masa yang lapang tu. penat takyah cakap la kan sebab kerja pun office hour masuk kul 9 keluar kul 5 dengan kena pegi kelas lagi 3 jam sehari tapi aku rasa berbaloi la penat bila nak banding dengan pengalaman and rewards yang kitorang dapat nanti. apa yang kitorang pelajari during jadi RA ni and time that we spend together is very precious. memang tak ternilai. terima kasih Allah sebab dah buka pintu hati aku untuk buat pilihan yang baik ni and bagi aku peluang untuk rasa semua ni. syukur alhamdulillah >.<

semoga tak stress at work :)

p/s: image from google