Hikayat Seorang Aqilah: Komitet Gosudarstvennoj Bezopasnosti

Assalamualaikum.

Pada mata dia, segalanya tentang fakta. Tentang rosakknya manusia, bodohnya lelaki, bangangnya wanita. Tentang manusia manusia manusia keliru yang bahagia diperguna. Sebagai objek. Sebagai alat. Biar puas nafsu dia, asal kau dijulang. Bukan?

Dan golongan itu, golongan itu yang salah.

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BOSAN

Dikala suasana sunyi di waktu pagi
Cuma bunyi ketak-ketak yang didengari
Bunyi jari-jemari yang menari di papan kekunci

Aku bosan

Bila agaknya semua ini bakal diakhiri
Dan senyuman akan kembali menghiasi
Menghiasi pipi di dunia indah kami

Aku bosan

Menanti sesuatu yang pasti
Saat yang pasti kami miliki
Biar masa yang akan tepati

Tepati janjinya yang tentu
Menamatkan waktu bosan yang kami tunggu-tunggu

Sungguh! Aku bosan.

NA3

Aku Bukan Kau

bila kau tanya aku sesuatu

aku minta kau tunggu

tapi bila aku tanya kau

kau jawab tanpa minta waktu

aku bukan kau

kau lihat orang marah-marah

tak sempat reda keadaan

konklusi bernas dah kau berikan

tak sempat aku marah dah kau tenangkan

tenyata aku bukan kau

kadangkala ada masa

bila kau sedih kau berduka

walau hiba tak seberapa

air mata kau tak sempat aku seka

laju mengalir tanpa langsung dipinta

tapi bila aku sedih 

kau orang pertama

yang tamatkan aku punya duka

beri aku hilai tawa

aku tak mampu jadi kau

sebab aku bukan kau

NA3

realiti aku

lama sudah tak bersua

bersua dua bertukar cerita

cerita tentang kita

kau, aku dan masa depan

masa depan yang belum pasti penghujungnya

aku tak mengharapkan hadiah besar darimu

cukup sekadar luangan masa azimatmu

sekadar bertanya khabar kepada diriku

merungkai permasalahan satu persatu

merungkai rindu yang menggunung terhadapmu

..................................  “Hi babe. I miss you. you rindu I tak?”....................................

setiap kali soalan itu di ajukan

kau berpaling muka dan terdiam

aku pula tertunduk segan

segan pada soalan yang tiada jawapan

jawapan yang mampu bikin hati aku tenang

aku tidak menantikan jawapanmu waktu ini

aku sedar akan realiti ini

kau mungkin bukan untuk aku pada masa hadapan

kerana kau tak mampu beri aku jawapan

-mock-

puisi hati luka

dulu

kau kata kau sanggup tunggu

tunggu aku yang minta waktu

tapi kau dulu yang menyatu

dengan dia yang nombor satu

kerna

kau kata aku ni lambat

lalu hati dia dulu yang kau tambat

kata kau dengan dia lebih cepat

aku kau tak kisah sangat

lalu

pergi kau aku relakan

katamu mencintai aku satu beban

jadi aku kata aku tak kesalkan

walau di hati bagai pisau ditekan-tekan

NA3 

have faith!

assalamualaikum

been busy lately. bukan busy je tapi super duper busy *padahal banyak je mase free*. plus the idea nak upadate blog and nak cerita macam-macam awesome things datang tak kena tempat. masa tengah makan kat cafe la, masa keluar berjalan-jalan la. bila tangan dah sentuh keyboard nak menaip, idea tiba-tiba hilang. gone with the wind.

ini pun nasib baik la ade mood nak jari ni nak menari-nari atas keyboard. kalau lah taip thesis macam ni memang esok pun dah boleh jilid and hantar thesis tu. pastu pensyarah pun akan salute dengan aku and angkat aku sebagai best student of the semester #berangan.

anyway, lately *dua tiga minggu ni* aku jarang masuk lab untuk buat sampel untuk kajian aku. instead, aku masuk microbiology lab untuk culture bacteria. padahal course yang aku amik kat university nih adalah chemistry and aku punya final year project is about plastic and takde kena mengena langsung dengan benda alah bacteria ni.

tapi disebabkan dulu aku pernah bercita-cita nak amik microbiology as my major at university maka aku join la kengkawan spageti aku yang buat antibacterial punya test kat lab microbe ittew. heh.

seronok woi culture bacteria pastu buat colony pastu transfer masuk slant agar pastu separate atas plate and tengok dia grow ke tak. fuhh tak cukup nafas.

macam tula ceritanya. so moral of the story is walaupun kita punya cita-cita and kita ditakdirkan untuk tak dapat apa yang kita nak tu, jangan terus putus asa and tak cuba untuk gapai keinginan kita tu selagi kita mampu.

believe and have faith in yourself! you can do it!
ngehehehe

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xoxo :)

PAK TURUT

disuruh berdiri, dia bangun
disuruh duduk, dia terus bersila
disuruh berlari, dia laju memecut
disuruh berjalan, dia pantas mengikut
dipaksa minum, dia meneguk
dipaksa makan, dia telan

semuanya dengan satu harapan
semuanya dengan satu tujuan
semuanya dengan hati yang ikhlas
semuanya agar kebaikannya terbalas
semuanya selagi tidak ditindas

namun sampai bila si pesuruh akan malas?

-NA3-

wordless wednesday #5

#putrajaya #alamanda #besties

XOXO,
ENDY.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY

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Assalamualaikum.

As everyone is celebrating new year with all families and friends and also loved ones, i'm here curling alone with my books and notes in my room studying for final exams. But its okay as I'm feeling very good because I achieved almost all the things that I want for 2012 in time.

I'm not gonna write a long wish for 2013 as I'm stealing my study time to update here so with this chance I would like to wish to all my family and friends especially ZACK, MOCK, and ROY for giving me such a wonderful time throughout the year. Not to forget my best college buddy ever MISZUE for always be there when I needed her.

The most important wish goes to my beloved Mak and Ayah for giving me endless support from I was a 'comot' little girl until I am a 'clumsy' ENDY now. hehe. And I hope the support will never end as I'm coming to the most crucial time of my life which will be my turning point to who I will be on the next next year.

Then, I wanna thank my so called "mama" which is my favourite aunt Cik Yah for being my best hangout friend ever and my shoulder and always listen to me whenever I'm happy or sad or having problems with friends and also for being my Doctor Love.haha

Last but not least, this is very special. HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my father Mr. Azahan Apandi Ab Kadir. I wish you all the best for your career and may Allah bless you always. :')

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P/S: Ayah, I want iPhone 5!!! hahaha

Anyway HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

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XOXO,
ENDY.

i'll walk with you till the last mile of my life

assalamualaikum

tajuk entry kali ni kemain panjang lagi ye. aku dedicate tajuk tu to my beloved boyband group WESTLIFE. niat aku bukanlah untuk mengagung-agungkan hiburan ke apa ke. I mean take this on a positive side okay. aku membesar dengan music diorang and sampai ke hari ni me and my sister ingat lagi lagu-lagu hits dorang ni. aku kenal this boy band since i was in primary school and since they are still a five membered group. 

but then baru semalam I've watched their farewell concert. the one that they performed at Croke Park, Dublin. and I tell you what..it was SUPER DUPER AWESOME AND AMAZING!!! that was their last concert and how they say goodbye to all their fans but for me, that was never a goodbye and a farewell because they will always be in my heart and I'll never stop listening to their songs. its very touching to see all the members which is Shane, Nicky, Mark and Kian cried at the end of the concert. I cried too especially when I saw Shane was crying a lot like a baby ='(

soon it will be semester break and I swear the first thing I'm gonna do when I reach home is I'm gonna search for all the westlife VCDs that I have during my childhood and I'm gonna play it back and sing it loud. It was a very emotional moment throughout the concert. it feels like it was their last performance and the crowd was really enjoying all the precious moments together when they sing along with the band. I personally can't believe seeing my childhood idol performing for the very last time after 14 years of their success. their music brings me happiness and always give me inspiration especially when I was growing up. all in all, they means a lot to me. I'm gonna end my dedication to them as I'm gonna rolling in tears again while I'm typing all this. 

(all image credits to google)

I'll walk with you till the last mile of my life and I'm never gonna say GOODBYE cuz I'm never wanna see you cry.

xoxo,

ENDY 

:'(

soon it will be 2013.

salam alaik.

tahun 2012 dah nak sampai penghujungnya. tak lama lagi berduyun-duyunla orang update pasal azam baru. but before that orang akan update pasal christmas. for those yang celebrate christmas jela kot. for me, some of my family did celebrate it every year. anyway its christmas eve sekarang and dua hari lagi dah 25th of december. 

kalau nak story semua cerita best tahun 2012 lapan puloh lapan entry pun tak habis rasanya. so what i'm gonna do is highlight story yang best-best and remove story yang tak best from my memory. *deleting*. done. 

earlier this year I was still in my second year.tak berapa nak matured lagi. then on April my class buat video project for Pengenalan Produk Oleokimia subject and we had such a good times. one of the memory that I'll never forget sampai bila-bila *becuz I jadi heroin video uolls!*. It's a once in a lifetime chance for me. HAHA.

On May, my class went on a Lawatan Industri trip to Pahang. the resort we stayed at was very near to the Teluk Cempedak beach and it was a very beautiful scenery there. gila cantik Teluk Cempedak tu. And dekat sinila titik permulaan macam mana ZACK,ENDY and ROY boleh jadi rapat. we lepak-lepak at the beach along with CHESTER late at night sambil chit chatting and cuci mata. never know that lepas tu we all boleh jadi rapat macam sekarang :') 

then on July kalau tak silap its semester break and some of my friends and I stayed for a short semester as well as helping Dr.A with the research. the one that we all jadi temporary research assistant tu. mase tu we create tons of memories and those memory will be in my heart like forever. 

there comes August. the month of Ramadhan and raya. it was great fasting with friends sambil ke kelas and working in the lab. penat pun bersama, buka puasa bersama. there was one day we all buka puasa sama-sama at Dr.A's place where we help him sediakan juadah for berbuka and it was fun. real fun. lepas tu we went to shoot some great pictures for raya. all credits to the excellent photographer Awwab. then I went home for raya and had a blast time at kampung.

the Agasses 2012

on September, we all came back for a new start on a new semester. its very exciting yet scary because we are starting the final year of our study. macam-macam ada dalam fikiran masing-masing masa tu because we already aware of the challenge of being a final year student. its a tough semester but we managed to pass the hectic time successfully. may Allah brings us success. Amin. now we're waiting for the final battle of this semster which is the final examination. #praying. 

Wake me up when september ends! October was also one of the best month of this year because we went for a trip to Riau, Indonesia. the memory will never be erased from my mind because i love to travel like a lot. it was great times, meeting great people, had lots of great food and see a lot of great thing. and if i can sum up all the great experience in one word it would be WONDERFUL! and then on October also we went for another brilliant project at USIM. we went there for i-INOVA exhibition. google it and you'll know what the exhibition is all about cuz I won't explain. panjang sangat nanti.hehe.

On November, basically there was no big thing happened except that we all are sooo freakin' busy with finishing our proposal for the final year project, never ending assignments,tests, exams and countless presentation. 

the same busy for December as we are going to end the semester and finish what we needs to be finished. But December is my favourite time of the year because my birthday is on 4th of December where I got a memorable surprise by my beloved ZACK, MOCK and ROY at Alamanda, Putrajaya. I couldn't be happier thanks to them. :')

the surprise memory 2012

We finished this semester with an epic memory of proposal presentation. And another memorable year is going to end soon. there will be a lot of great and beautiful memories more in the next year I hope. In Sha Allah.

Acu with nieces and nephews 2012

XOXO, 

ENDY.