Cakes and Candles.

Birthdays. It’s the one day that I always hope it won’t end quickly for it is a very special day for me. The day I was born into this world is the day worth remembering (well at least for me). It happens to be every 4th of December every year hence December is always my favourite month. 

My first birthday party is when I was 4 years old. I got my first story book from my dad. Mom and dad invited my friends, my cousins and some other kids I didn’t even know. It was fun and exciting until I fell down bumping to one of the kids when we were running around playing. I was calmed by my mum and went back playing when the party started. 

This year, I spend my first birthday as a wife. Still very special as I got flowers and kisses the other day. Anyway, I hope everyone gets a special birthday time as me every year. 

Till next time, 

Andy

November rants.

Hi loyal readers.

It’s been a few weeks but don’t worry I’m still alive. 😂. There’s so much going on in my life in which I’m juggling between work, learning on how to be a good wife, adapting to a new lifestyle and most importantly getting ready to be a mom. Yes. I’m already 8 weeks pregnant 🤰. For me it’s quite early because I think I’m not ready and my target of pregnancy is after around 7 months of marriage but I guess we’ll never be ready until the time comes. 

So my morning and evening now is accompanied with nausea, vomiting and dizziness which is very uncomfortable but bearable. However, that is not all ladies and gentleman. I feel sleepy all the time, not to mention fatigue, back pain, losing my appetite and many more normal pregnancy symptoms that every pregnant women have. I don't have many allergies to food but I cannot stand the smell of cigarette smoke and every time smelling it I'll feel like vomiting. So my days had been like a roller coaster this November and I really hope that December will be super nice to me. I've always love December as it is my birth month and I'm welcoming December with an open heart.

Apart from being a struggling mom-to-be, lately I've been missing my family so much. It feels like packing my whole thing and going back to my hometown for good but don't worry I still am rational and I know I have commitments of being someones wife and also commitments to my work. Missing someone and not being able to see them is a very painful feeling. It does hurt sometimes because I'm in a state that needs full support so I feel like I need my mum all the time. Lucky me I have a very nice mom in law but still, its not the same. Mom will know exactly what I need and knows how cranky I can be at times and knows what to do. It is very challenging to not have your mum by your side during your first big thing like this. But it's okay, I'm a fighter and a strong woman, as far as I know I've been through so many big challenges alone and I'll stay positive on this. Many more challenging days to come and I'll share almost all my pregnancy journey with all of you lovely readers soon.

Till next time,
ENDY. 

How we met.

Hi assalamualaikum. 

Actually I don't know how to start our story of how we met. This is because we work together for a year before everything starts. But I'll try my best to make this sounds interesting. Hope it doesn't snore you off. Take a cup of coffee because this is gonna be a long entry. 

At first we were just a friend. Just a normal kawan kerja who randomly speak to each other. We only talk if there's something he wanna ask about work and vice versa. I only text or call him if there's thing about work regarding him. Besides, he always seems serious and quiet and it is so hard to see his smile. That's why I always kacau him so I could see a bit of smile on his face. Little did I know that every time I kacau, it build something inside his heart for me. 

However, he doesn't say anything or confess his feelings for me yet because at that time I'm already seeing someone. A few months after that I went through a tough time for I broke up with my boyfriend. I was so frustrated and I decided to close my heart for men. No more dating, no more texting with guys and no more thinking or talking about relationships. But, that moment doesn't last forever. He started to text me out of work hours. Mostly it started with him replying to my whatsapp status. He keeps a close tab to what I do and pays attention to every details about me. 

And then late October last year, he told me in a text that he wanna tell me something. Then I ask him out and later that night he confess his feelings for me. I would never forget that moment. The way he look at me sincerely for the first time. I didn't realise that feeling was mutual until he met my parents and tell them that he's gonna make me his wife. 

It was a smooth journey of beginning to know each other until we got engaged and finally got married which was so fast. We only got serious in relationships for two weeks before our family decided for us to be engaged and we got engaged for about 8 months then terus naik pelamin. For me it was not a very long time. But everything was and still easy when I'm with him. Plus I feel safe and it's a good sign if you feel safe whenever you're with your partner. When you find the right person, safe is home. 💕

Now we are married for two months and i hope this happiness continues forever after insyaallah. Now that I have him, I have an arms I can always snuggle into for love and support. Thank you Allah for this blessings. 😊

#yunamir 01.09.18

Finally, the day has come. I am a wife now! and I'm happily married to the man of my life, Amir bin Baharin. We got married on the 1st of September 2018. Almost two months now omg. Masih terkejut beruk lagi because everything feels surreal. But life is so much better now and I'm beyond happy. 

This month last year, I was planning to go to various places to extend my travelling list. Who knows my plan goes haywire this year as someone suddenly confesses on 21st October 2017 and ask for my hand in marriage. Allah has a better plan for me Alhamdulillah but i still miss travelling especially my annual trip to Melbourne. 

Tak pernah imagine that I will be the bride in a wedding. Selalu jadi pengapit or just watch my cousins and relatives get married. Anyway, the whole wedding thing and 'raja sehari' experiences was fun eventhough it was so tiring. Serius penat giler namatey tak bergurau. But it was worth it. Patutla selalu dengar kawan2 yang dah kawin mention 'best jugak kalau dapat naik pelamin lagi sekali'. LOL 

I'll share my wedding experiences and how I met my hubsbaby on the next post. Still waiting for the photos of my wedding from my official photographer though. Can't wait to see them. 

Reception at Desa Hj Salleh, Pasir Puteh, Kelantan

Reception on his side, Taman Bukit Meringin, Kajang, Selangor.